Rants

I’m somehow really not up to my work these past few days. One of the obvious reasons is because I really can’t deal with “Madam”. I just try to be obedient to her because after all I am just a noob here since the start of the year. Yet still she tries to put me down. I really do not know what to do with her. Since she has a firm grip on my boss, my boss seems to see my mistakes more often. These past few days, I have been making mistakes that somehow were Madam’s fault and I took all of the blame. I just forget these things because for me these mistakes are lessons learned. Today, I had a chat with the other office mate and she told me that my boss is somehow not happy with me. I’m almost about to become a regular employee of this company and the only things that my boss wants me to improve on is making connections with clients because he said I’m naïve about that point which I know. Madam somehow told my boss that I still have to prove that I am worthy to become a regular in this company. I still do not know what I should prove to become a regular here. They should have expected less from me because I’m just a new grad and no professional work yet since I graduated. The last job I had before this can’t be called a professional job because that company didn’t even enroll me to the SSS and my current company does not know about that previous job. I’m really seriously thinking of quitting this job and find a better paying job that also has equal treatments to it’s employees. My boss is still thinking of letting me go to Korea for some training so maybe I may quit this job after going there.

Last week, I checked my email and there was an email from our alumni Yahoo Groups telling everyone that there’s an opening for a job that deals with troubleshooting PCs and networking. I was aghast when I saw it, that was my dream job and yet I can’t apply because I currently have a job. The job pays more and even will have an increase after only 3 months. I have average knowledge for the troubleshooting part and beginner’s knowledge in the networking part but I am a quick learner especially to those kinds of topics. Another opportunity gone to waste.